Ungrateful Entity

if you ever meet a very ungrateful person
just put yourself aside from this situation
and remind yourself this is not between you and this person
it is between you and Allah
it is the test for your patient
and believe me a reward from Allah is better
than a thank in return from a human being

So don't expect this  person should return your good deed
because an ungrateful person will always be ungrateful
save yourself from wasting time quarrel and cursing
just pray for this person to change
and move on


p/s: I type this post to shift my anger and take it positively. Yes I just encounter a mean ungrateful person.

One billion baby

Once we were at Genting, and we came across a sign that said the memorial of  Lim Goh Tong a way ahead. Lim Goh Tong; the founder of Genting Highland. He was the third richest Malaysian with a fortune worth 4.2million. 4.2 million? Man that's sejuta juta times 4 !! if only we had just a quarter from that- one billion ringgit....
"Buy me a Ducati and a new Sportcar, and you can have the rest of the money," said my beau--tiful husband. That's the most romantic promise any women can have. So,..  if only we had that one billion ringgit. I went on listing of what i'm going to do with MY money,, err our money.

Proud People

Talk with an air of nothing
Walk without even watching
Ignorance of others existence
Acknowledgement is an alienated word
Smirk and shrug with a so-called style
Think and thoughts with a so-called smart brain
Greets and laughs like they have audience
Foolish Proud People
And the rubbish linger

supporting character

one drama. one theme.
one pair of main character. one undivine love. two broken hearts.

three relationship analysis. two gossip agent. one sneering face. five dedicated fan. altogether thirteen supporting characters to add the dramatic plot.

ex-girlfriend

dalam banyak-banyak perceraian, nak ceraikan ex best girlfriend antara yang paling susah. kadang teringat, kadang tergelak. kadang rindu. kadang meluat, marah, jaki. kadang rasa nak sebut nama, rasa nak mengutuk.

campur baur.sentiasa ada di pinggir hati. susah nak ceraikan. liat betul.

orang kata aku ni jahat. orang tak tahu kadang-kadang perceraian adalah langkah terbaik.

emotion

we always hope that crying will make us look lovable avril for once, but what always happen was, miserable face stamp with wet tears, the weirdest stroke of smudge mascara, the most un-sexy smash hair, and the cry itself. it always kills the beauty. well, most of the times,..

life can be a row of surprises

life can be a row of surprises,

i was, sitting in the living one day,
looking back all the slow days pass through me like thin air,

thinking how dull can life be,

how small things can stir dramas,

how everyone strive for attention,

Then came the next day, when big dramas arrive, in a row, i swear to you,non-stop,

like overlapped deadlines,

surprisingly, we swallow it just to let it dissolve,
just to end this overloaded year,

despise vs longing

How can someone you despise can put a whole in your heart?
When someone you wish to disappear suddenly, disappear,
Isn’t it something you should quietly cherish?
Or at least be glad and pretend to be sad?
Then why is this someone can make such a hole that can never be filled?
Why do you your thoughts still linger of this someone existence?
Why everything you touch reminds you of this someone?
Why won't it wash away like every past person?
Have this someone stays too long in your heart,
Wound you as much as care for you?
Wasn’t this someone you wanted so much to loose everyday?

Maybe I’m not ready to loose her.
She left without a warning. It’s a scary thought if what you were yelling might be the last word ever spoken. It’s a scary thought if your last encounter both full of hateness, might as well be the last. she suddenly appear as sudden as she disappear, or she might not, as soon as you thought. She’s an unpredictable soul. And I am so much surprise how hard was it to remain ignoring of her disappearance.

my deep upsets

oh where do i spells out the curse?
where so i yell out my angers?
to the friends who loves to brings things out?
to poor lover who will soon wont bear more?
to a dad who had enough?
oh where so i spill everything and feel much better?
do i have to swallow this bitter sadness?

that's where a stranger will aid the need.
consume everything without a guilt.
but beware to change your 'stranger',
because if keep using it will loose its power.