Breastfeeding is challenging!

I was very determined about breastfeeding when i was pregnant. I search and google and read as much as i could. Brought a breastpump- and read more about express breastmilk. My husband's SIL were very encouraging and emails me articles and videos. Yes; i was ready; at least that was what i thought.

And then came the first week after birth. I wasn't prepared the emotional breakdown; the hardwork; the pain; the constant need to motivate yourself. The pushing to the limit moments. The discouraging when baby keeps on crying after breastfed. This went on to the 2nd week-----
I googled again-searching and reading. This time to learn more on the 'painful' side on breastfeeding. I learn why people giving up. I learn it's normal the milk supply will delay. It's normal the baby's poo is liquid. I learn if i want the supply to be enough i have to breastfeed as often as possible. Supply on demand; they keep on saying. I learn a lot more. And still learning. Even the positioning need to be constant check. The nutrition. How to counter the pain.

Well- i'm a bit past the three weeks now. Still had 'mini' emotional breakdowns. But now; i'm more in control. Articles and forums help me a lot. If i could go back before birthing i would tell myself two things:
1- you really need to go to a lactation class
2- you will go through a very challenging phase- it will pass.

Breastfeeding is a real 'business'- no kidding. I'm savoury my small victory to go beyond 3 weeks. Credits goes to my mother in law who 'made' me breastfeed even when i was complaining. Those intense first week. I would probably have given up if she stop insisting.

I had thoughts on my mom. What she had gave to bring us to the world.

Now-looking forward for my 4th week of breastfeeding. Praying for a smooth week.